u really won't know the value of a person until u realize they're gone...ö

Its been awhile ... i've been busy torturing myself to work... making myself busy to cover up the loneliness that i've been feeling... is this just a feeling or a fact or a truth that i must face on this life's journey...

On this stage of my journey, it's a struggle... forcing myself to be happy, deep inside i'm sad... forcing myself to smile but deep inside i'm hurt and crying...

It seems like i'm tired of what is happening on this point of my life... am i just tired of making the same things happen all over again... i need to leave those hurts and heartaches that i had... i have to move on, to make me feel better and make a new and better me...

Come to think of it... it's really hard to move on... i can't really make myself not to think of what had happened to me... i miss those times that i happy with the old friends... those memories that i linger and cherish... but when those hurt keeps on coming back, tears start falling... i can't help it... i miss the old me, my old friends the old times.. but i must move on... leave those things and persons that left me wounded and hurt.. those persons that made me cry... i have to be brave for me to be able to move on... I have to set my mind that those things are over... i have to face my upcoming journey with an open mind...

This is just a beginning of a new journey...